An Equal Music!!

Aug'24th '09


Wow!! First of all Nice pic to start with..... Let's continue!! This pic was taken on May'07 @Harshil. This pic is very close to me... It gives me the idea of nature's will....

Well.... I am writing again... why? Is there a need? Yes there is. I really like the idea of being 23rd Aug. I don't know it's happenning the way it should or is it getting little more complicated. Ain't we as a human being bear the responsibility to respond to our "6th Sense". What we feel, What we want to do, these kind of curiosities be decided solely on us. I mean why anybody's opinion or action matter in your sole course?


May be i am looking superficially at things. Do i need to be blunt? I think yes....


Have you ever felt "Touch". Yesterday i met her. :) I could not hide how happy i was, but at the end of the day(actually it was start of the day) "Bakwas band karo. Motor on off karo aur so jao". Do i really bother you so much? I would never want to do that... why? I really don't like you to be in conversation with your dilemma. Follow your heart(Do i sound Paulo Coelho?), Shit worst!! Do i sound like Sahrukh khan!! I am not sure weather i'll publish it or not?I don't know I am not getting feel... Mujhe lag raha hai ki unnecessary baswas kar raha hoon!! Aur Karta bhi hoon generally:)




When you touch; you connnect to that person like wired... Transfer of energy always happens; from higher to lower source. That's what determines the onus or rudely "Dominance"of Connect.
Perfume goes nice with you!! Could not forget!! Flash Memories!! :)


I am in such a fix.... I can't even express my happiness and i can not even choose it.

But it's always nice to act in unpredictable way!! If life is coming full circle... let it be... It's high time. And yes I do think i deserve it... Why i could stand at Nature's wish...

I am feeling good actually :) Love Actually:) I feel fresh yaar!! A voice cheers me up!!

"Change" is the key. you have to flow... continuity is life... I'd love to quote "you" :)

The worst part is most of the time we are in "Stale-mate" .... or may putting appropriately "Status-quo!!"

Its 0235 Hrs... so late... what i am doing.... writing blog:) Wow!! The weather is really great outside.... Jane neend kahan chali gayi hai.... Achcha lag raha hai :) ....

This was "Bakwaas".

Sometimes i used to think why people consider it bad to trust easily. It feels nice to trust... It's nice to know whom you can look back. That's all that matters... atleast you had something to look back....

Broken wings!

Well to start of the inability to deliver when you wanted it most is a creepy feeling. Nothing helps in.

You might say I got you too easy, and you said it…. Though it is highly unimportant but yes it does matter.

“You said I killed you - haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!” – Wuthering Heights.

 

 

How emphatic this statement is, may be we could not find any other way but I really wish I’d have been in a more convincing position.  Now what shashwat? What rather ….

I have no clue how am I gonna deal with it but I have to as it is important for me and you as well (till some extent).

 

The ghosts of past coming and haunting me, it’s happening again. It’s always coming back and hitting like a truck.

Bring on the champagne …

I can’t take it any more……… Solace

My heartfelt wishes for you… May you find what I couldn’t…

Solace!! 

Last liar!!

Well… It’s happening again… I am being accused of same thing? So, is it time to recollect and reconsider things or?

There is no point blank theory that can exist as a piece of truth but it is a chain of events, small pieces of truth and of course impulses (which can not account on reasons as if there ever exist a reason ,it wouldn’t have been called “impulses”). 

The news update is: I am jinxed. Is it really so? Well… if I take an overview of events occurred in affect of me since last year as recently and tracing back to past 7 years as history; it can be deduced that I am jinxed or if I take liberty and put it little mildly that may be the combination is not working; me and time. 

Hell… I should know that earlier. 

As far as I reconsider myself friends are important for me… important than me, and if there exists a chance of choosing I might escape as I won’t be able to handle that tremendous amount of pressure. 

I do want to write more about but feeling not very nice. And what I could do now? Sorry …. It’s just a 5 letter word (depending on the graveness of situation) now.

Some kind of cyclone or maybe tempest is rising within. 

NO IDEA! What next!! 

The one thing that’s sure is I am feeling very alien and un-me. Helpless I am and I don’t really enjoy it. 

I died here……………